Subhuti on Remorse and Confession
From Sila to Samadhi
From his experience with many order members, it isn’t just
time that lacks to develop samadhi; sila is an essential foundation – and this
is true even or especially if we don’t notice anything especially wrong. It is
a practice – progressive. Clarified by his reading Know Your Mind and Asanga’s
Bodhisattvabhumi, seen to be useful by teaching it. Especially the first 3 +ve
mental events: sraddham hri, apatrapya.
Sraddha
= spontaneous response to spiritual truth. 3 aspects:
conviction (cognitive / intellectual), attraction (affective / emotional, bit
similar to aesthetic appreciation), decision to move closer to the object
(volition) & confidence that this is possible.
3 aspects sometimes called lucid, serene, longing faith
respectively.
Lack of confidence is often a problem. We often interpret it
sympathetically as psychological difficulties, lack of self-esteem etc – but
old texts see that same problem as a form of laziness.
Laziness also has three forms:
-
wanting to stay in bed etc
-
Yielding to unskilful impulses
-
despondency (I might say despair) which can lead
to giving up. <- this one
We can lean on the cognitive and volitional aspects, even
when the affective isn’t so present – i.e. can lean on the fact that we keep
practicing. It can be more like a subterranean power, visible in our
orientation in life rather than any operatic states of mind.
But it can be felt more consciously, in its more fundamental
manifestation – a desire to be ethically pure – through remorse and confession.
“We experience our sraddha consciously when it runs up
against the opposing force of our greed, hatred and delusion. Remorse is the
pain generated by this collision of forces.” Acknowledgement allows the pain to move
through and not get stuck -> can feel good!
Confession – 4 aspects
(3) making amends – even if it is costly or inconvenient –
without a willingness to do this, the confession is not fully sincere.
(4) resolution not to repeat the fault – which usually means
to start forming a strategy that will help.
(1) seeing the fault as such – it needs to be felt – that
grinding up of our sraddha against the deed, i.e. remorse – a painful and
perhaps restless feeling or regret and shame for something done or left undone
– a spontaneous mental event. Best way of strengthening and educating this is
through
(2) regular confession.
·
Ethical remorse (kaukrtya) – as above – this is
the skillful type
·
Functional kaukrtya – e.g. ‘did I remember to
water the plants??’ – mental alarm bell – not dealing with this can cause background
anxiety – morally neutral
·
Neurotic kaukrtya – driven by fear of punishment
/ of losing love – near enemy of the ethical type – unskillful.
Ethical remorse has 2 aspects:
·
Hri - remorse from recognising that I have
fallen short wrt my own sense of right and wrong
·
Apatrapya – similar but seeing our act through
the eyes of someone we deeply respect.
·
+ve but painful. If denied, they will produce
despondency and self-loathing. Can get a pattern where we deny a fault in
ourselves so start to see it in others and dislike them for it.
·
They are also faculties that guard us again
acting unethically – ethical antennae – lokapalas (guardians of the world).
·
Apatrapya more powerful than Hri. S. saw that he
needed to be cultivate them, and
exposing himself to spiritual friends was more effective than going it alone
– humiliating as it was.
·
Apatrapya doesn’t lead to dependence on others
but to a stronger connection with reality so more independence.
·
Apatrapya v helpful to transform ‘the morality
of the private moment’ where small unskillful things obstruct our spiritual
progress. Concealment itself may be part of this.
Both presence and absence of ethical remorse are +ve mental
events.
·
Presence shows our sraddha is strong enough to
strike sparks from collision with our negative tendencies.
·
Absence (assuming not deadening or denial) =
pamojja ‘delight’ – characterised by a sense of unity, harmony and integration
= link between morality and concentration in the 3fold path. One version of +ve
nidanas is dukkha -> Sraddha -> pamojja -> piti etc (concentrative
mental factors).
·
Another set of +ve nidanas is sila ->
avipatisara ‘freedom from remorse’ -> pamojja
To summarise: a good next goal after (he says) effectively
going for refuge is pamojja, as it opens the doorway to meditation. Journey to
get there:
·
Dukkha ->
·
Sraddha ->
·
Sila i.e. strong ethical awareness, developed by
the precepts + hri and apatrapya ->
·
More receptivity to ethical kaukrtya (remorse)
->
·
Practice of confession ->
·
Eventually remorse is eliminated, or arises in
minor forms and quickly resolved ->
·
Sense of freedom + sense of confidence
(avipatisara) ->
·
Delight (pamojja)
On confidence – traditional Buddhist methods to instill it:
·
Performing meritorious actions (incl puja)
·
Ethical purification by means of confession.
On confession:
·
Part of shared GFR
·
Articulating one’s fault clarifies it to
ourselves as well as others
·
It needs hearing – by someone with the same
context and perspective
·
Chapter is a natural context – together they can
act as a ‘wiser friend’
·
Or one can practice with a friend –
embarrassing, but engenders trust & intimacy
·
Chapter / partner can:
o
Ask whether there were consequences, have they
been put right?
o
Help analyse the conditions, work out a strategy
to avoid repetition, review the outcome
·
Responsibility of all in the chapter to confess
and to receive confession – leads to spiritual progress.
Comments
Post a Comment